Saturday, October 29, 2005
okay heres a clearer one.
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dreamed.at .|. 2:58 AM
started drawing this pic extremely bored n grumpy but when twas done i just had to smile. note The Abused Child's scraggly dry hair, numerous battle scars, uneven eye size n notes flung away.supposed to be sad but its more cute huh, hahah. :)
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dreamed.at .|. 2:54 AM
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
nullism
do you not see them?
them manacles
them us me manacled
cheer up, you say, and i try. i really do..but i cant. they've too heavy, its all too heavy. try stretching a smile and you'll see.. the skin splits in all directions. revealing yawning chasms. all together now, until thats all you see.
sigh i dunno why this onslaught now. its absurd, the happier i am the sadder i am. or maybe it isnt absurd. after all, the happier things were only makes it end more sad right? if only i would listen to my brain more often n not my heart.. it wont be so much of a yo yo then.. but then again it wont be much of anything else.
right now i feel as if life is one big conrad story. obscure obscure! and all tt..altogther too fleeting.
its not just one thing but a whole jimjam of stuff.. n its not meant for u to understand either. u cant try and grab haze. perhaps next time when i can i'll talk abt it. all i can do now i guess is to thank my frens and ppl who've been my willing crutch n pillow these yrs n esp these past few months n more. calling me up n msging to check on me when i hit low is sweet..i really appreciate it.
almost is nothing, but these close packed intense periods of growth, put to gd use is something :]
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dreamed.at .|. 5:29 AM