Saturday, February 26, 2005
dome.
went for talentime with sharm jill n hui ghee's bro yesterday. hahah. we went to support hui ghee! :) hahah it was so funny. the 3 of us left for coro 1st to get flowers n we wandered ard the place. stopped at cafe wadever for dinner. tt place is so cool... got nice atmosphere n all. n they have this board where pple write stuff and stick on it. oh! the wierd stuff that pple write.. hahah. bumped into my former sa classmate there too. larissa. had a nice long chat with her while she was waiting for her frens to come. she doesnt seem to have changed much. hahah. kinda miss the sa days... wonder how they've all doing. a31 really split all over the place. : yeah so we had to meet hui ghees bro, ghee chuan. hahah at the bus stop. n when we went there, there were like 2guys tt could be him. both short n... kinda fair. hahah. wanted to go up n ask them if they were ghee chuan but luckily we didnt cos they both got up for the bus. hahah. yeahh.. turns out he alr went into sch. talentime was ok.... quite interesting. n the pple were not bad. but i liked the FHM group the best. furry horny monkeys. hahah. hilarious...their performance. suzy's grp! :) too bad they didnt win tho. n hui ghees grp the orange mamas were quite good too! :) n sokies rigid boy was great too. hahah. all in all it was alright. not splendid but we went to support huighee so tts wat matters :]
after the show we (sharm, jill, hui ming, hui ghee, her bro, prad n i) went to kap for dinner. hanged ard idly chatting till late. turns out huighee's bro is not wat we expect. hahah. we expected this BIG[horizontally] stout fierce ruffian looking guy..someone capable of throwing his younger sis into the drain. hahah. but it turns out hes quite ok... n he loves hui ghee alot. hahah. so sweet.... :) still, im glad i her a sis. we dont engage in fist fights. hahah.
booo. the week end shld be longer. i cant seem to find the time to play rest n do some badly needed catching up w work all in the short span of 48 hours. YAWN. wat with cca on sat too. : some 5day work week. at least the horrid tests are over. math chem chem. but they were all rubbish anw. more tests next wk. oh joy.
pris- hahahah. :) i miss you man. n i love it when u flood my tag board. heheh. u say the nicest things! -hugs- thanks. uve one special girl :] loveya.
maria- you! take care too ok. hope ur ever present flu goes away. rest well.
sokie- waves. too bad bout the comp. nvm, there'll be more the come yeah? come on girl. i have faith in u too! :]
cyn- hi! oh no... tt means cl will be out soon too! ahhh. yeah. stupid pw. IM SO GLAD ITS OVER. hahah. hopefully we'll do okay! :
yan- hii! u found my blog.. hahah. must be thru ching rite? :) thanks. n can we meet up soon?? feels as tho u've disappeared fr the surface of this earth. : miss ya. soon alrite? bet u miss ur darling god dog too! hahah.:)
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dreamed.at .|. 5:47 AM
Saturday, February 19, 2005
YAWN.
woahh. yesterday was hell man. didnt go to sch cos i felt sick n feverish.. almost did tho but i could hardly stand straight wo wobbling so i decided to get back into bed. booo. felt so lousy. the yrs just begun n i alr fell ill like 3 times?? had coughing spasms n tt was simply horrid cos my stomach was still hurting fr tues pe. hahah. n there was once my fever act reached 40.2 degrees! scared the hell outta everyone. including myself. hahah. thought i was just gonna sizzle n start frying. hahah. but no worries! im better alr. fever gone n a lil of flu left. oh well. guess i brought it on myself la.. been pigging out on cny n vday chocs. hahah.
oh vday! vday was super fun :) sharm n i gave lil pom pom angels to everyone in our class! n sokie, franc, clarine n joel too. hope they like it :) had lotsa gift exchanges. pretty socks stuffed w goodies, yummy cookies, mamee, clips, flowers, feathered pencils, apples, crystal flowers, letter adressed to QUEENic :] hahah, and theres more i think but i cant rem. whee. so nice:] but we were all complaining tt the guys in our class suck. all take n no giving. oh well.... wat can we expect theyve guys. sigh. but even then, still rem last yr in sa.. the guys were damn nice. bought us balloons n flowers etc. so sweet rite :) ah well... after sch i went out for vdays dinner w my sis n cous. our annual thing. hahah. it was fun. im glad i turned down my date.. relationships come n go but friendships are more impt to me right now.
okay i gotta get off now b4 i start to get woozy again. hahah. thanks to all for their concern! :]
replies to tags!
feli: hahah. i used to have links but im too lazy to add them back yet. when i do i'll link u k! ohh
tried tagging at ur board but ur board got prob. hahah. go fix it!
sokie: hahah. ur new template's damn nice too! :) thanks for ur concern. i'll start eating healthily like u too. lets have fruit n vege munching sessions. hahah. take care of ur thigh!
ching: yeah i realised my tag board is ok alr... dunno how come tho. hahah.
theo: yay i noe uve a regular fan of my blog! hahah. sorry couldnt go sa fun fair :
huiming: hahah. yeah my new template rocks rite! love it too :) wat happen to ur blog btw?
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dreamed.at .|. 8:40 AM
little things.
it didnt seem like much,
but it was one of the little things which are always waiting to be done in this world,
this world. where rainy days come so often, where spirits get out of tune..
a kind little thought, an unselfish little act, a cheery little word,
so sweet and comfortable that no one can fail to feel their beauty and love the giver,
no matter how small they are.
mothers do a great deal of this sort of thing, unseen, un-thanked, but felt and remembered long afterward and never lost, for this is the simple magic that binds hearts together and keeps homes happy.
empty rooms, empty chairs. i miss all the little things. those hugs, those talks n confiding sessions, those good laughs. the specially home cooked meals. those little sacrifices n thoughtful acts of love that go almost unnoticed. the unconditional love. for just being there...not because she had to, but just because. even though we lived in a smaller house.. less furnished, less luxurious, insects infested, crowded n messy. love warmth n comfort existed there. it had abundance of what this house lacks.
i miss those times. i miss having the comfort of knowing that even when i screw absolutely everything up, n feel as lousy as a cow, that there is someone there.. who despite all that shit, still loves and accepts me for who i am.
now its just empty chairs.. n even the laughter n gaiety of temporary day to day things cant seem to mask the darkest of nights. who the hell cares?! like really.
sometimes im just so tired of being strong. too tired to put on a smile. maybe im not as strong as i think i am.
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dreamed.at .|. 5:34 AM
Sunday, February 13, 2005
whirlwind of rubbish.
argh. i fustrate myself sometimes. why do i do the things i do...... why do i feel the way i feel. i keep doing those stuff. different pple, different situations, different opportunities.. i always react the same way. man. when will i noe? or be sure? bahh.
sigh... the hearts a
strange muscle indeed.
anw.
happy valentines day to ya all tml! :]
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dreamed.at .|. 5:37 AM
Friday, February 11, 2005
rooosters.
hahh. just realised ive only blogged like 5times since 2005 started. anw these past few days have been fun! well kinda..
tue: new yrs eve
went to sch for celebrations n then i met pris n ching at borders! met ching a lil earlier n we walked ard at far east for awhile. town was like bursting at the seams w pple.. every few steps we walk we'll see someone we know. hahah. then we met pris at borders to eat nydc! yumyum. oh n i saw xt n shumin there. haha. the 3 of us shared this jug of drink..elephanccino. hahah. think the name is damn funky. n i ate this mud pie thingy. so yummilicious! :) but coulnt really finish it. heheh. we chatted quite a bit n then walked ard for awhile. we tried on all sorts of make up n eyeshadow stuff. so funny. pris helped me put on this blue eyeshadow tt she claimed made me look nicer but it reminded me of our chem teacher mrs chew who had silvery blue eyeshadow which made her look like a fishy mermaid. hoho. it was so nice to see them again! pris esp since the last time i met her was almost 6months ago! loved catching up w them n just doing stuff tog :) but was too short tho the meeting. ching n i had to rush home for reunion dinner. bahh. so we had to go...but 1st promising to meet up soon again for a longer time. sigh.. theres nothing like meeting up w old frens :)
reunion dinner was....cosy. just 3 families fr my dads side. had the usual steam boat n stuff. n we settled down to talk n roar w laughter at sachikos tales. shes so funny. then played a lil of rubbishy cluedo n play station. oh n my dad bought me a flower. hahah. its this yellow tulip plant n now its sitting on my balcony. yay. i love flowers :)
wed: CNY!
dragged outta bed to go visiting. went to aunt chings house 1st n sat ard for awhile pigging out. n then rushed back home to welcome my dads side relatives to our house. so cool man! see everyone all dressed up in their smart looking outfits waving hongbaos in the air. haha. my cousins were all like 'woah-ly' dressed. bare backed, mini skirts.. heels. but somehow my relatives kept commenting on me >.< boo... was just wearing a spag tog n a lil skirt n they made such a beeg deal. ooze sexiness? my foot. hahah. its like totally absurd. i was horrified at first but after tt it seemed quite funny. they obviously dunno wat sexy skimpy is. hahah.
took the usual new yr photos offering of tea n oranges n exchanging greetings stuff [the one time in a yr i have to sprout auspicious chinese chengyus at everyone]
then we were off to my aunt margarets hse for lunch. thereafter i started having cramps n the day passed in a blur w me almost passing out in the toilet n everyone getting all horrified n stuff. hahah. if i werent delirious w pain i would have thought it funny.
so while the rest went to visit the temples, my family went home n i slept the afternoon away. quite spoiler rite.. but oh well im used to such stuff.
at night we went to visit the maternal relatives. pple i didnt noe existed came up to me n shook my hands, claiming theyve my distant distant cousin. hahah. so cool. met lotsa interesting pple. n saw lotsa relatives we knew by sight but hardly talked to too. visited 2 relatives houses all like 8 diff families..but we mostly just sat in front of the tv and stuffed ourselves n chit chat.
thur:
went to visit char n nas house in the morn. slacked ard... ate more food. n then we went home to rest. visiting can be oh so exhausting. hahah. sharm n jill were supposed to come over but they couldnt last min n sinyan too.. but she couldnt again last min. so... i just slacked ard at home. felt quite good :) i shld dedicate more such days to myself.
fri:
had to go to sch but its half day! whoopee! but still brought lotsa books cos pradeep was hinting tt it might not be a half day.. bahh. hahah. lot of them went to orchard to eat n shop. but jill wanted to watch constantine so we went to j8. nice n convenient. ate at pastas cos jill was fasting. n we played hang man cos she was being a KAY POH n tried to force stuff out of me. man i shld learn how to lie properly. haha. alfie alfie. walked ard window shopping n we thought of a brilliant bday present for huighee! yay. smartsmart. :) its gonna take lotsa time n effort tho. the movie constantine was.... okay. haha. not as scary as i thought it'll be n some parts were pretty funny. like the part when keanu reeves' pecs were exposed n everyone sighed 'woww...' at the same time. hahah. keanu reeves is so cute! man. but the demons n posessing parts were scary. we sank as low into our seats as poss n jumped at everything. hahah! even when its just like some rustling of paper. see la tt jill made me all tensed up. haha.
okayy. tml is yet another busy visiting day. breakfast lunch n dinner all having different pple over. 3 parties in a row. 3 times having to play gracious host. hahah. ah well...
wat a long entry. happy roostery cny everyone! :)
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dreamed.at .|. 6:02 AM
Monday, February 07, 2005
clipped wings.
" happiness...that quick profit of impending loss?"
why is it when things seem to be going well n when u've like happy... contented happy, peacefully happy, happee happy. at equilibrium. something suddenly hits u squarely between ur eyes n makes ur vision go all fuzzy. seems that happiness comes w a price.
enjoy being happy while u can! cos later reality n the sickiness of life catches up w u.
i guess i deserve it. head in the clouds n not looking where my feet are going. ive got to really really take matters into hands. strike a balance.
afterall, u cant have everything. and i dont want rude awakenings of such a kind anytime soon.
my nonchalence is just a facade.
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dreamed.at .|. 2:56 AM
Friday, February 04, 2005
dancing eyes.
wow been rather long since i last updated. just kinda lazy la. n lifes been so busy lately:] anw just some shout outs to does who tagged.
theo- hey girl! glad to noe u've alive n kicking. hahah. i'll most prob be gg for sa fun fair. will let ya noe soon n buy tics fr u k! :)
ching- CNY coming. we'll meet up soon. :)
sokie- yeah u did great! was so proud of u k. got injury still can run so fast. hahah. too bad u didnt see us cheering for u!
mayjean- u rjcians are haunting j8 man. hahah. lets go sa funfair tog!
hmm. lifes been busy so far... even with the fri hols we had i still feel like i dont get enough slack rest time. weekends shld be like 3 days out of 7. sounds fairer rite... hahah. anw the hari raya haji weekend i was at a family chalet.. cos my dad won this free 2day staff at safra bungalows. damn fun! we swam at the beach n basically did retarded stuff tt was damn fun:) oh n we bowled too. n 7 of us squeezed into 1 room for the night. who says frens r better than family? i love my family too:)
n last wk we had road run on fri. hahah. quite fun la. except for the running part. which was supposed to be the whole point. tried pacing w hui ghee but tt girl was just too darn fast! hahah. alright huighee! super fit. missed top 50 by like 8-10 pple. sigh... too bad. i didnt intend to run competitively anw. just tt when jill showed me the badge i wanted one too. hahah. yeah then we had class outing. most of us turned up. quite fun. ate at cafe cartel n then went to istana park to play retarded games. hahah. then some of us went to watch hotel rawnda. sad show..n quite scary too. jill was afraid but she didnt wanna admit it! hahah. all in all it was nice la.. felt good to be roaming ard aimlessly as a grp again. reminded me of the fun 1st 3months og n class outings last yr. sigh. nostalgia... seeing th j1s have such fun in their 1st 3 months kinda make me wish im j1 again. then i would have done some stuff differently. but then again i wont wanna go thru the horror of promos n all tt shit again. 1yr down..another to go.
last sat i went new yr shopping. bought really pretty clothes :) shopping always makes me happy.. esp when dads wallet is nearby. heheh. n at nite sokie n i went for this youth charity rock concert at hc. my fren was performing. hahah. he's rather good. but sok n i were mostly amused the whole time... laughing at frantically waving fanatics singing at the top of their voices despite being a lil tone deaf. n had gusts of bo too. hahahah. ok it seems kinda bad now but it was funny then. :)
its another busy wkend ahead. one full of cny preparations. have to go to sch for cca syf auditions.. sigh depressing. n then i'll be off to do more new yr shopping. tess n darien staying for the wkend too. :)
sometimes i wonder.. w all these stuff n fun im having on the wkends.. how will i ever get my work done well n properly n like settle down to get into major exams mode?? lotsa my classmates are alr like damn serious n focus this yr. even the usual slack ones. talk abt scary.. guess i must start try focusing too.. n try not to blank out during lessons. bahh. wat a life we poor exam bounded kids live. hahah. feel so trapped n fustrated at times. esp when lately we've been confronted my SPAs, tests n integration nonsense. grr. ok i'll quit whining. will prob be a long time b4 i next blog again so takecare ya all :)
i miss you.
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dreamed.at .|. 6:29 AM