Wednesday, December 29, 2004
today i woke up early for like prob the 1st time this hols to go to the temple at kms. they were having the 100million mani recitation retreat again this yr but this time i didnt sign up. it was for 10 days! fr 830am to 10pm! n i would have to miss christmas if i signed up! seemed too horrifying n unbearable to me when i was asked to sign up again this yr. cant think why tho... when i was so on abt it after last yr. sighh, n after attending the morning session today, i realised how much of an opportunity i had lost. kinda disappointed w myself tt i had succumbed to the flightiness n opression of the world this past yr after wat i had learnt fr the retreat last yr. i guess i just wasnt sensible n steadfast enough to hold on to what i believe in an practice it. n maybe abit rash n ambitious. haha. well, im glad i made time n had to chance to go for this morning session today. it has helped me restore my faith n awakened me to certain things ive been blocking out n am still blocking out.. i guess i'll have to try really hard to take a step at a time from here. mistakes are ok, as long as lessons are learnt fr it.rite..
afterall, this past few yrs have been tough n also the recent massive scaled tragedy tt struck sri lanka, india, indonesia n other areas, have shown tt everything is impermanent, and tt the only certainty in life is death. so w the uncertainties of this world, what else can pple seek to answer life n deaths qns n learn abt the larger purpose tt governs us? i dont want to live my life in numbed ignorance on a day to day basis n just do wat im doing wo really thinking or seeing wat direction im headed to. n for tt i shall turn once more to buddhism. like last yr, except tt i strayed off for a long time. tt shall be one of my many new yr resolutions! :]
ok so today [wed]
went out w lynette n alethia! :] met for sakae lunch n basically hung ard n chatted n walked ard n ard. n we followed lynette to get her belly pierced too! heheh. was trying to talk her out of it.. telling her she will get constipation n blahblah. but no, she wont listen to my always sound advice. so we went to fareast w her to this shop where they had a sign 'genital piercings done' n had all kinds of muscular hairy, vvvtatooted guys hanging ard inside. n i was thinking tt it was a bad idea to get a piercing done there... but she went it anw n they turned out rather nice. i helped her choose a real nice pale blue stud n she n alethia went off into the piercing room. there was only room for 1 other person in the room n alethia was incredibly fascinated w the thought of watching lynettes belly being pierced so i decided to stay outside n let her have the 'honours' heheh. yeahh so tt was basically the highlight of our outing.
haha, plus it was gd to see both of them again after like 398721 yrs of course. ohh n i almost forgot. we got approached by a really wierd guy today too. he plonked out of nowhere outside tangs. n started babbling n prattling off loudly to us. asking us if we speak english[like duh] n telling us tt we 3 were really vvvpretty girls but theres a slight prob. den he gave a fake puzzled frown n bellowed, 'its ur eyebrows!' they were apparently sing-ed n bushy n whatever n totally spoiled our look. haha. i was mildly offended for a few secs when he suddenly shoved a newspaper cutting in our faces n said he was [ta-da] SUPER STEVEN! famous, on newspaper, plucked celebrities eyebrows...n he was willing to charge us at a superbly low price of 10 bucks! i saw this pic of a guy in a superman outfit in the newspaper cutting n there was a sign on it saying 'super steven!' n he did the super man pose for us several times. i suddenly had the attack of the giggles n had to almost smother myself to stop myself. hahaha. ohhh mannnn. but it was entertaining. other than the fact tt i had bushy crooked eyebrows
yesterday [tue]
had something on n then rushed to meet jo maria n hm. ate lunch at yoshi n then went to watch phantom of the opera!! didnt want to at first cos i remembered my horrifying experience when i watched the musical last time. but then, i was 5 only la. haha. n i dont regret it one bit! it was a beautiful movie. the scenes n costumes. n the songs! n the singing! terrific. n so sad too. feel so sad for the phantom... no one shld have to ever go thru soo much pain. x( n i felt sad throughout the movie n after tt..cos the phantom was so poor thing. he loved christine sooo much. till the point of insanity literally but he's act a good man deep down. there was just too much hate in him. sighh. this reminds me of the saying 'the only way to free yourself, is to forgive.' soo true.
then walked ard borders looking at really nice notebooks b4 jo left n maria n i hung ard at far east for awhile b4 we left too.
ok so i had lotsa fun;] but i haven finished my hol hw! oh shit. n im meeting sokie tml too. to exchange gifts :] toodle-oo.
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dreamed.at .|. 8:19 AM
Monday, December 27, 2004
all christmassy.
wow. ive been partying like non stop for 3 days straight. just endless streams of parties one after another. how satisfying. n these christmas parties werent the boring kinds we sometimes had where everyone sat ard awkwardly making small talk. they were great.
fri- christmas eve:
spent 'quiet' evening at home w tess, darien, aunt ching n family. ordered pizza n the kids coaxed us into wearing wierd supposedly cute masks throughout the evening while we ate. i was a butterfly, n my sis a cow. haha. we were unamused cos those things blocked our vision but it was all in the name of fun. sooo. n who could say no to 2 enthu kids? haha. sat ard n admired the christmas tree..then we opened the presents early cos they were real excited bout it..n tess wanted to play this passing the parcel game first but darien tore open his presents first. haha. was fun opening the presents. i got a school bag n mp3 player fr my dad. n roxy shorts fr aunt ching. :) the rest of the night we spent 'playing' w our presents. tess was obsessing over her blow art kit n i was helping darien fix up all his complicated toys. ohh...n carollers came too. a whole big grp of them n we had no heart to turn them away so we let them in n listen to them sing w great gusto. haha. sis n i were trying not to laugh. but they were cute la..n we donated some to their church n gave them free drinks. oh n 1 of the girls was a cedarian too n she recognised me! haha. :]
it was a great evening although it seemed like we didnt do much. but oh well.. nothing done does not mean nothing happened rite? :]
sat- christmas!
when to aunt glorias house for the party!! everyone was there alr. seems like we are always the ones being fashionably late. haha. had pot luck n stuffed ourselves w food. then open the presents. we did it family by family n each person was presented their presents.. so cool rite. it was really a joyous affair:) got lotsa nice nice presents n the aunts will all go ard n ask if we like their presents. so sweet. aunt pat painted this shirt for us 4 girls :] n cos my sis n i were i/c of getting the presents too. it was so delightful to see tt the boys n all liked the presents we chose. my taste not bad rite! but most of all, it seemed as if the whole room was a package itself.. filled with laughter, happiness n love. :) i love christmas! n its not bout the presents too. its abt the care n thought tt has been put into it..to make everyone happy n this day special. how i wish all days were like tt. but then if it was, christmas wont be so special rite. :)
well then, after tt. the four of us girls n the four guys went down to swim! swam for 3hours! played water captains ball for vv long. haha. na, joe, me n gabriel were on the same team n char mer ben n mat on the other. was damn fun. had a lot of laughs. plus the guys kept doing silly stuff. haha. n then after captains ball was exhausted. we raced a few laps...breastroke, free style, wildly splashing in the water n hoping u'll move[in gabriels case;] haha. n my sis was the fastest as usual. shes been training swimming this whole hols. n then after tt we did dumb stuff like piggy back race. the siblings competition. haha. i carried my sis across the pool ok! more like sploshed my way thru. so retarded n we couldn stop laughing n the pple ard were staring at us. then we had dinner. put on make up n had a fashion show/shoot.. which again, was hilarious. ahhh. i love my family. :]
sun- was just another party w my dad n aunt chings frens. quite cool but the kids were too young so i felt more like a baby sitter instead. haha. but there was this kid with celebral palsy who was super cute n cuddley. n he loved my dog... so i kept dragging my dog over to entertain him. haha. talk abt pet therapy man.
well... so christmas is over n its the last wk of hols. oh mannnnnn. i dread dread dread it. tons undone, ill prepared to face the gruelling sch yr ahead n blahblah. but what the heck. i shall not let next wks terror destroy this wks happiness. haha. still have lotsa plans to meet pple n stuff. plus do the math hol hw.. which is progressing at slower than snails pace. haha. ciao! n merry xmas u all :)
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dreamed.at .|. 7:51 AM
Thursday, December 23, 2004
whoopeedoo.
today was a superb day! :) left home to meet my cedar pals! met ching n theo at pasir ris mrt first n i was late. due to unfortunate unforseen circumstances. haha. then ty met us at downtown east. wildwild wet was damn cool! there were huge gigantic colourful slides n rides.. n theo was super excited. haha. we all were la actually cos its our first time there.
so we sauntered in in tshirts n shorts n got 2lockers n 2 big floats. we sat this wave stream 1st tt had strong currents n ty n i shared a float. it was hilarious. the entire kids population must have been there n we were trying to get into the pool w all those huge fat floats. kept getting bumped by wet bodies n those floats. so ty n i tried to sit on the float tog. so she got in first n i kept jumping n jumping trying to get onto it. HAHA. had many failed attempts in which we capsized or end up getting stuck in awkward n somewhat obscene positions. hilarious. but it was real fun :)
next we sat this 6seater slide called 'ularlah' n we [unwisely] left our floats at this place where we thought it would be safe fr the wandering hands of any possible float-stealers. so when we were queueing up for the ride.. ching spotted these grp of indian guys stealing our floats >.< so we started gettg all agitated n we were tryg to figure out where they were gg..but couldnt see properly fr up there. luckily we took note of their pants. mr flower pants, mr rednblack n little black swimming trunks guy. haha. so we sat the ride n started screaming till this little girl who was there w her dad, started hollering in a high pitched shriek startling us all. after a shocked pause we released she was doing tt on purpose to spite us. sheesh. wat a brat. haha
n then the hunt began. wasted 1hr trying to look for our floats n the guys. was kinda pissed.. n just when we decided to give up..ching spotted a flash of flower pants. haha. n so the chase began. was cuttg across pools n crossing bridges to get to them. then we found out they were alr detained by the www staff. heheh. n ty was like the smooth confident lawyer convicting the suspects guilty! so we walked off satisfied n the nice www man gave us 2 new floasts.:)
went to the wave pool to play next. the huge wave pool.. n the whole dumb -struggling to get onto float while toppling over n getting stuck halfway- scenario was repeated again. haha. damn funny. ty n i kept knocking into each other n toppling over backwards w a loud shriek. much to the entertainment n amusement of spectators. theo n ching were NO BETTER too. heheh;] n this overfrenly father w 2 kids kept trying to help us get to the deeper end by bumping us violently n succeeding in knocking me off the float! haha. it was super deep. like 1.7m n i was so shocked. swallowed tons of water. haha. so when i finally got on again.. we managed to stay in the middle of the pool n enjoy the huge waves. :)
n thennnnn.. we sat the super high vshaped slide. longgg queue. ching n i shared the big float. n while we were climbing up we kept bumping against the railings n getting stuck at all the turns. haha. n coulnt see where i was gg. when we reached e top we were over excited n burst thru the barrier n saw theo n ty sitting on the float giggling n we were laughing at them too. then the frenly www guy said 'you both dont laugh its ur turn now. come here.' haha. were chit chatting w them.. they real frenly :) also found out tt almost the entire www staff knew abt our stolen floats cos we were seen running n looking ard. haha. so funny...seems as tho we made www news or something. then to our horror. the guy made us position ourself w our butt up on the seat cushion n our legs jammed awkwardly in the other persons armpit such tt we were almost lying horizontal. haha. the ride was so exciting n fun! ching n i started screaming but she couldnt hear me cos she was louder. haha. n in a few secs.. it was over. but it was good :)
den we went to the gross changing room [bikini bay] haha. where theo n i squeezed into the shower room for a quick rinse cos i din have a plastic bag for my clothes. after tt we ate at macs b4 cabbing to my house to cook some stuff [ty's egg w super big onions, n hotdogs n hashbrowns] we are chefs in the making! :D n they taught me how to play bridge. n i won 1 game. haha. :) its a start for a beginner ok! n i gave them a tour of my new house:)
ok this entry is super long n im not even being tt detailed yet. haha. but minute details dont really matter yeah? all that matters is tt we had a fufilling day filled w fun, laughter n genuine friendship. :]
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dreamed.at .|. 7:29 AM
Sunday, December 19, 2004
Rows and flows of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere,
I've looked at clouds that way.
But now they only block the sun,
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done, But clouds got in my way.
I've looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down and still somehow
It's cloud's illusions I recall
I really don't know clouds at all
Moons and Junes and ferris wheels,
The dizzy dancing way that you feel
As every fairy tale comes real,
I've looked at love that way.
But now it's just another show,
You leave 'em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know, Don't give yourself away.
I've looked at love from both sides now
From give and take and still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall
I really don't know love at all
Tears and fears and feeling proud,
To say "I love you" right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds,
I've looked at life that way.
Oh but now old friends they're acting strange,
They shake their heads, they say I've changed
Well something's lost, but something's gained
In living every day.
I've looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
I really don't know life at all
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dreamed.at .|. 8:26 AM
Saturday, December 18, 2004
when one door closes, another opens?
wheeeeeeeee. im back! :] plane landed this morn at 6.10. china turned out surprisingly fun.. though i wasnt really looking forward to it. haha. first we arrived at beijing where we changed plane to harbin. it was damn cold! like -2odcelcius. and at night it would reach -40! haha. wore like 4layers n was still shivering. my toes were frozen till the skin peeled.
so we spent the 1st day touring harbin. n then we went to jilin. it was at jilin tt i first saw snowflakes. actual big lovely-shaped snowflakes falling from the sky:) went there to ski too. heheh. was not as scary as korea but it was definitely colder. winds were soooo strong. n i fell only ONCE. -beams- cos we got adventurous n went up the mountain quite high n then when i pushed off i was thinking oh no shitshitshit. cos i was blinded by the snowflakes n i was travelling super fast.. n there were like bumps of snow everywhere n so i started wobbling n wobbling till somehow my skis got crossed n i collapsed clumsily. haha. so retarded. n the china onlookers travelling up on the ski pulley were all staring at me n howling instrustions at me. which i couldnt really understand. hahahah. hilarious. i was laughing so hard but i somehow managed to uncross my skis n stand up n ski down on my own. -applause please! ;] yeahh..was real fun! n it was highly amusing watching the rest learn to ski too. my aunt ching, tessa, darien n ivan. Dariens coach was the most abused ok.. he had to drag him physically up the mountain n piggy back him to n fro. haha. poor guy.. shld have seen his face man. n aunt chings coach was kinda cute. hes so pro at skiing! in asia ski olympics or something. hahah.
n then next day we went to changchun. spent 2 days there. 1st day went skiing again. this time we hired 5 coaches. one each for the 4 of them n 1 for my sis n i. so wierd la.. having some guy tag along. n he kept following me especially..cos my sis point blank refused to have a coach tagging along.. haha. but i didnt have the heart to turn him away so he just hanged ard. but he turned out quite entertaining n helpful anw. he pushed me ard n helped me w my ski poles n to get on the ski pulley. looks quite cute too.. like a lil playful boy:) we kept trying to have a decent conversation but either he or i gets lost halfway. haha. so he ended up singing cl songs n i just laughed. all i noe is tt he is 22 n lives in the village nearby n tt he is no.27. haha. his chinese name was too chim for me to read. he completely didnt understand english at all................when my sis n i were talking he ask me wat language we were speaking. =0 quite shocking. but tt area quite rural la so its normal i guess. oh n we tried to build a snow man too! it is not as easy as it looks ok. turned out quite difficult. the head was more like a stump n it kept crumbling or rolling off. haha. but the coaches helped us n we did it! yay:) put acorns for its eyes n twigs for its hands n gave it a scarf n a cap too. so cute! took lotsa pics. will try put it up soon. oh n tt nite we also went for our first full body massage ever. so cool... n then we went to shenyang for a day b4 went back to beijing for another 3days.
there we visited places like tian an men square n the forbidden city. n the tour company hired a photographer to film us. so funny...laughed like crazy when we saw the video. n we also climbed the great wall of china. woww. it was so cool. the winds were strong n it was freezing. n there was like snow n ice all over the steps. plus the steps were so steep too. n the great wall was soooo long n huge! it was tiring but a real great experience. after this 8 days in china..ive learnt to respect n even like china. the pple are honest n simple [most at least] n its so rich in culture n history. n i think my chinese has improved somewhat. haha. so well, 8 days well spent :) n now its back to home n normal life n work. im glad to be home.. but i'll miss the carefreeness n the interesting pple n experiences i get when im overseas. but oh well...all good things have to come to an end. 1st thailand, now china. still, theres christmas n lotsa stuff to look forward to :]
-blocking out the thought of school n work-
when one door closes, another opens. right? hopefully :)
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dreamed.at .|. 10:22 PM
Saturday, December 11, 2004
sokieee =)
hey. its sokie agn.
ure in china nowww! so far away! boo.
i got my new specs today. i think it might b abt the same as urs from e way u described it, except tt mine's turquoise while ur's black. hahaas i think i might decide to wear it on my non trng days, since u claimed tt we haf oredi made a promise abt tt.. n a hao ma bu chi hui tou chao.. i wont take back my words..! :)
hahaas.. been shoppin arnd for xmas presents.. bought a few oredi but havent seen any which suits u yet..
but no worries, i save e best for last mahs.. i will def get u smthg nice yeapyeap! :)
loveya and haf fun in china. i'll cyaaa sooooooon.
*smirks*
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dreamed.at .|. 6:59 AM
Thursday, December 09, 2004
blurredperceptions
this sucksssss. life is really full of ups n downs.or maybe its just me n my mood swings or bouts of insecurities n high periods. okay i sound like a lunatic dont i. well, maybe i am. im schizophrenic. muahahahahah. sighh. i dont know whyy. but perhaps its just tt we are all gg thru tough times. my family n all. us especially. on the surface, outwardly. all is bright n cheery. but underneath there are huge problems tt r wearing us real thin. its not tt the happy moments we have now are superficial. when we've happy, we've truly enjoying ourselves. but then,the next moment, the problems below surface n u feel tt u are JUST SO BLOODY FED UP WITH EVERYTHING N U JUST WISH A CAR MIGHT COME N RAM U DOWN. yeahh. its like some vicious grotesque cycle. wierd. i dont understand it myself. what exactly is wrong with me? us? my life? our life? everyone does mean well when they do stuff but somehow it all comes out wrong somehow. clashes, conflicts. its just tt everyone has their own problems n situations to deal w rite now n we are all dealing w it the best way we can but sometimes dealing w it means shouting yelling, blocking out stuff, crying, talking, not talking. forming grudges. boiling seething tolerating. n thus clashes. bahhh. i really hate conflicts but it seems tt there r ever so many of em happening now. i feel so blessed sometimes but yet at times i feel so damn low n lousy. wth is wrong w my life? how can i right a problem that is twisted n tied into so many intricate knots? i wish i knew.
on a brighter note, had fun w sokie on mon n tue. she stayed over at my house! n we went to the club. hahah. went shopping n bought cool shoes! n we slept rather late..at 3. was watching tv n upsetting my closet n playing dumb games tt were hilarious on the comp. heheh:) n played lotsa stuff at e club. table tennis was the funnest i think! we were acting retarded the whole time:D but swimming wasnt so nice this time cos it was raining n freezing cold. couldnt tan:( hahah. but we swam laps n exercised alot. went to watch late night movie too! without a paddle. unique n funny show. n sokies nice parents fetched me home :]
yeahh ok, n im leaving spore [again :/] for china. gg to beijing to shop n sight see n to ha er bin to ski! oh man. skiing is so fun. so thrilling. maybe too thrilling. heheh. seriously, it is too thrilling. -looks at na- the last skiing trip we had, we were falling all over the place. haha. na n this ski boarder got entangled. his board was caught betw her skis n they travelleddown the hill at top speed tog. the guy was babbling furiously in some language n they landed at a heap at the foot of the hill w the guy cursing n na's ski pole broke. hahah. oh n sachi ko crashed into a wall like.. many times. i myself was no better. after dragging the super heavy skis out n finally getting them on.. i slided down backwards down the hill. thrilling? more like terrifying. hahah. oh n there was this time when i fell terribly w my skis cross n my body twisted n my ski poles flung in opp directions. n i had no one to help me cos it was a steep slope n the rest had sped down ahead alr. hahahah. terrible okay. i couldnt even uncross my legs cos the skis were so darn heavy. thank goodness this korean guy came to my rescue. hahah. how undignified :/ yeahh so skiing here i come again. hopefully it'llbe more fun than thrilling [terrifying] hahah. take care all! n ive gotta meet lotsa pple when i get back too :] toodle-oo.
bimbo- heyy! -waves- :D miss ya. meet up if u want k.
na- boooo. while im away help me look after pebs n feed goldilocks n his/her sidekicks k! hahah:) look after por n moon too! okk i shant nag :P
michelle- hey dear! i love presents! :D hahahah. yayy does tt mean we get to meet up to exchange presents? missya. :)
sokie- had fun w ya. :]
ching n pris- too bad thur was off. another time yeah :)
theo- we must convince ching's mum. u think of a speech kkk. haha.
maria- shopping when u get back? :]
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dreamed.at .|. 8:48 AM
Sunday, December 05, 2004
heyy. :D
was a nice day today despite it starting off badly. there was tension n razor sparks shooting all ard this morn n i acted like a real bitch. >.< sighh. dunno why im so tempermental these days...
ahh well. guess cos im feeling stressed lately. whyy? 'nic get this! get tt! check this! wats wrong w tt! what are all these lying here for! why havent unpack!' pple ordering me.. this and that this and that thisandthat. n i have to run ard in circle doing this n that n trying to please everyone. incldg my maid who seems to be having a nervous or watever [mental?] breakdown. sheesh. spare me please. ohh n i got tons of academic stuff to take care of too. but i just dont have the time! leaving for hol like this coming fri. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. im so gonna die next yr. i dont wanna flunk out for my As n alr im deep in my neck struggling w jc work. argggggh. just kill me noww. okay i shall quit whining abt me n my life. afterall everyone has their probs yeah?
today was begged n nagged n finally convinced to go shopping w aunt ching n tess n darien. can u imagine me having to be nagged to go shopping? tts how many stuff i have to do at home. really feel like a ragged housewife now. hahah. anw... was a fun day out. i love shopping! bought lotsa stuff :D n tessa n darien were real cute too:] i love kids! wanna have lotsa them next time. :) tessa is real nice to talk to.. n darien is just super cute. hes forever disturbing me...tts his way of playing i suppose. but hes still so sweet n loyal. hes those kind tt will really take care of u n really help u if he likes u. n he likes me :] when we walk ard he holds my hand n when i was trying on clothes in the dressing room he held the curtain for me cos he claimed it might open. so sweet rite!! :] i feel so blessed sometimes.. i guess family is really impt.
next wk is gonna be a real busy wk..whee. sokie coming over to stay.. meeting up w pris n ching. have dental appointments n specs appointments n all tt crap. bahhh. oh n theo! we have to go see chings mum n have an adult-to-adult talk w her in our long sleeved shirts n long flowing skirts! hahahah.
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dreamed.at .|. 7:56 AM
Saturday, December 04, 2004
look to this day.
okay im baaack! :D
its been a long time. actually came back on mon but was still in the midst of moving house n all so didnt have the time to come online. n i just got broadband today! hahah. but my mouse is spoilt so im kinda having a hard time using the comp. :/
okay so alot of things have happened. first of all the yep trip. it was damn fun! really enjoyed the experience. great n unpleasant times..it was all a good learning experience. lets see. 1st 4 days we were at khao yai national park. first night we slept in tents n i shared one w sharmila. the stars were so beautiful! n we woke up soaked in dew n freezing cold. it was so cold i really couldnt move properly. my joints were like stiff. ok but to cut a long story short. i miss thailand! i miss the people- the pees. the kids. the villagers. i miss our 'house' despite all the rhino -motorbike sounding- beetles n the -terrorist!- praying mantis tt came clinging to our mosquito net. our 'house' at dek rak pha was this cute wooden thing on stilts! it was v windy n our clothes dried real fast. n its super cosy n actually quite comfy. four of us [me,jill,sharm,charlotte] slept tog on sleeping bags n blankets on the floor. :) actually it was supposed to be 3 per house but the first 2 nites meera n pj n charlotte came to sleep w us cos we were freaked out. hehheh.but then it got a lil squeezy n i had fever so meera n pj decided to move out cos pj was a lil sick too. yeahh, i had fever. argh. felt kinda horrible cos i couldnt join in the activities for 1 day but after tt i was ok:) but 1 thing i dont miss is the toilets. oh my gosh. it was scary to bathe ok. sharmila should noe. hahah. somehow frogs n beetles n whatevers all manage to share the toilet w her. n she would freak out inside n we would all be trying not to panic. hahah. for me i just dash inside n quickly pour water all over me without looking at anything. ignorance is bliss. heheh. but still could feel flies 'dive-bombing' me while i bathed so i just close my eyes. hahahah. quite funny now tt i think of it but then it was totally horrifying ok. ohh! n we had to work in the rice fields 1 day during homestay. it was a killer man. was carrying n bundling bundles n bundles of rice all across the fields. ahhh. had cuts all over me. not to mention the ladybirds swarming the place. but it was a once in a lifetime experience :) oh oh n while i was bundling this bundle up..a huge grasshopper! or whatever it was leaped onto me.it was the size of my palm ok n when it jumped on me my whole shoulder was pushed back by the impact. scary man. n i yelped n brushed it away.. -shudders- hahah. but it was seriously vvvvvvtiring. n we had to use sickles to cut the rice too. all tt trouble for a few sacks of rice?! now i noe how a farmer must feel. after tt we all just collapsed on the hammocks at the house n slept. it was extreme exhaustion man. charlotte n i shared a hammock n half way i remember getting off to join pj on the bed beside the rice fields cos i was falling off the hammock. hahah. n we slept for 2 hrs straight. only to awake to have thai kids n villagers looking at us n giggling. haha. think we amuse them too much. shrieking at insects n sliding down hills n falling into rivers while crossing bridges. hahah. oh man. feel so pathetic sometimes. at khao yai national park [which is 4 times the size of spore] we went to swim at a waterfall. and i almost drowned la! gosh..n i thought i was an okay swimmer. :/ the rocks were slimy n sharp.. n the water looked rather still n manageable. but the undercurrents were super strong ok! i dived into the ice cold depths n tried to swim to the other end n halfway i realised tt i was kicking w all my might but i was still stationary. then i was like...shit. my legs were starting to cramp la n i was starting to get tired. n i was nowhere near the land. n geraldine who had jumped in after me was in trouble too. hahah. she was like 'eh can u wait for me! there are alot of things brushing against me' n she was also like not moving like me. hahah. tthen we tried swimming on our backs but a wave came n engulfed me making me swallow water. thank goodness one of the pees. p rod came n rescued us. we were like gasping n clinging to his arms. think we almost drowned him too. :/ hahah. n he brought us to shore. so embarrasing lah. all ard us thai kids half our size were swimming across with great ease. n some of us even had to be brought life vests! me n geraldine shared one. hahah. pathetic man. but b4 u guys laugh. the currents were real strong ok! sighh. really enjoyed those times... painting by the candlelight at night. lying down on the mats outside to star gaze n talk. chasing huge porcupines ard n tryg to get a pic of it. singing songs n playing games. chatting w the pees. abt life n everything else. taking midnight strolls..playing w n painting masks w my buddy on. trying to make my buddy dance n recieving a plant fr her. cooking n chopping mountains of food. sending off our beautiful kratongs into the 'river' late at night with everyone lighting the candles n singing. hearing the kids laughter. laughing at the antics of pee charn n deaw n the rest. having the ticklers run ard me trying to tickle me. having kids i dont know coming up to me n shaking my hand. asking me to write in their book for them. pee charn calling me terriole n always trying to disturb me. deaw , my 'laotian sister' trying to convince everyone n me tt im actually fr laos n tt he is my brother, no sister. hahahah. jill n i managing the limbo rock w an eager enthusiastic grp of thai kids. the farewell ceremony where many came n tied e strings for me. the hugs i recieved. little kids clinging to my arms sobbing. gathering ard us as they watched us pack our luggage in the hall....the hugs n shy restrained goodbyes. cramped in the van as we all drove away to the sound of their goodbyes n waving all sniffling in the van. i miss it all man. n even if this may not be the last trip like tt i'll be making..n i might still be able to keep in contact w them via the net. it wont be the same....like menon said. 'i shall not pass this way again.' im glad i came for this trip :) even if it meant roughing it out for 2wks of my hols n missing moving day into my new house. cos lives have been touched in those 2 wks. mine included. :)
still, im glad to be back. :) since this is a super long entry i guess i'll stop here. its impossible to encapsulate wat ive experienced in 2 wks here anw.
Look to this day. For yesterday is but a dream and tomorrow is but a vision. but today well lived makes, every yesterday a dream of happiness and every tomorrow a vision of hope. :]
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