Destiny spinning a parachute flower to seed

Wednesday, June 29, 2005
roundnround

have u ever felt so 'mentally ill' that you could just vomit?
its all the cts fault! cant wait for the As to be over n done with. tho on the other hand, im far fr prepared for it. just imagine.. 12 yrs of oppressive education away n done with!

okay ive got 1/3 of a lit paper left on fri. doesnt sound like much when put this way but theres lots to read thru. oh ford! im always like super last min for lit. hahah. too much emphasis on the other subjs. and it might all come to nought still. realised today the arts pple study harder for lit than we do. man, n to think i thought i could give more study time to lit. hahah. argh. this whole mugging for exams business makes me feel like a crazy gerbil chasing its own tail. :(
k this is a pointless entry. hope everything goes well for those chem pple tml!

sokie- hahah. i noe u love pebbles so u prefer dogs :] no lah its fr madagascar.

yihui- really? lol. just sudden bursts of sisterliness occassionally i guess. yah brothers vhard to talk to right. they respond non verbally. gruntgrunt. hahah.

pris- priiiis! (: you're the one w the biggest heart! cant wait to meet up too. *love!

esther- hahah. our gp flower gang rocks :) yeah we'll get thru this mugging shit.

.|. dreamed.at .|. 8:40 AM

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

nic, you always underestimate urself. u are bigger than u look, stronger than u seem and smarter than u think. i saw that in u! so dont u ever ever doubt yourself again okay! shit happens but so what? you will get thru this, havent u always? dont u know urself well at all? and nows definitely not the time to lose faith. even when others have no confidence in u u need to bring it. you owe it to urself!!!!

- someone who doesnt wish to be named.

wow thanks. all that yelling did me good. :) i'll bear that in mind the next time im on the brink of entering pathetic cow mode. lol. its friends like tt that really warm the cockles of my heart.. to use a cliched expression. and after all the sleazebags ive met in my short 17 yrs im thankful for all the gems that ive found. :]

.|. dreamed.at .|. 10:41 PM

Sunday, June 19, 2005

(un)fabulous!

because it might not mean anything to you but it would have meant something to me.

its fathers day today! sis n i bought dad this cool shirt fr samuel n kelvin and a pretty cookie fr mrs fields! heart shaped w pink icing. yuuum :]

sokie stayed over on thur! n we had a splendid time :) mugged, stuffed ourselves w food n talked ourselves hoarse till early morn. yay it was fun. thanks girl for coming over :]
had a series of bbqs for the next 2days n now ive got 2 ulcers. lol. k thats all bout worth mentioning.

a big HELLO! to all who tagged :)

.|. dreamed.at .|. 5:23 AM

Thursday, June 16, 2005

supposed to meet sokie today but plans got messed up. :/ so had lunch w chew nat n mer at sushi tei. gosh it was so hilarious. we entertained ourselves by playing stupid games in between stuffing our faces w sushi.

mirthful events
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nat- hairy?
mer- hagrid!
me-beaver!
chew- hilton!
everyone- huh, hilton?
chew- i thought u said paris!
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chew- cuckoo?
me n nat- bird!
mer- nathan!
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mer- bread?
all of us- pitt!
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chew- hitch hikers guide to e galaxy was soo boring!
me- huh i thought its sheikh haikels guide?
everyone- OMG.
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me- if u can be anyone in the world just for a day who would it be?
mer[eagerly]- angelina jolie!
chew- oh ok, not bad lah she's sexy.
mer- no... cos she's w brad pitt!
everyone-..................
nat[saintly]- mother teresa
-pause-
me- she's dead na!
nat- oh.
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cant rem the rest. hahaha. it was damn funny. we laughed so hard. till mer will slide off the chair under the table. then one of us would kick the table real loudly causing all the stuff on it wobble perilously. this cycle repeating every other 3 mins or so..only when we paused for breath did we realised we were the only ones left in the restaurant n were getting strange looks fr e staff. oops. hahah. k i made us sound like uncouth barbarians, but really, we've nice girls. lol. when the 4 of us are tog, we've unstoppable. :]

here are the rest of the stuff which i did in my rather uneventful life:
sat- brought pebbles to the dog fair at j8 n bought her some stuff. she's one hot dog! :] had tons of over zealous male dogs after her. went to esplanade to watch mind games. it was pretty cool. n kinda unsettling how tt guy could sense our thoughts n all. we've never gonna be safe inside our own heads again!
sun- went to the club to play tennis. we kinda sucked. lol. but got better towards the end. place was full of huge insects n bats tho! n my ball hit a passing bat. >.<
mon- went orchard for dental appt. had lunch b4 heading to chars to study.
tue- stayed home. joe matt n na came over to do work or sort of.
wed- went kap w sharm to study! hahah. got a lil hw done. :]

.|. dreamed.at .|. 1:32 AM

Sunday, June 12, 2005

oh foolish sentiment

'At times the world can seem an unfriendly and sinister place, but believe us when we say there is much more good in it than bad. All you have to do is look hard enough. And what might seem to be a series of unfortunate events, may, in-fact be the first steps of a journey. '
- a series of unfortunate events.

do u think it is wrong for me to feel that in this world one can only truely trust n depend on oneself? its true that we need pple to love n rely on.. but essentially only we can guide n help ourselves. so why rely on pple? when doing so can easily lure u into a false sense of security n lead u to be over dependent n thus vulnerable? then again we do need to open our hearts to the world n its pple.. or we'll be pretty miserable. no man is an island unto himself. guess the sensible n logical thing to do is to try n strike a balance betw the two. too bad im neither sensible nor logical. heheh.

on a side note,
calculus, mr statistics n all math gods whatsoever should go eat their own squishy shit. :]

everything happens for a reason. coincidence? i think not.

.|. dreamed.at .|. 2:39 AM

Thursday, June 09, 2005

nakedapes

i am my harshest critic. i have high expectations of myself. though i dont really realise it but im constantly blaming myself n putting pressure, piling expectations on myself. w a lil help fr external elements lah. n why shldnt i be? its my life, my future, mine to shape. i guess everyone does it too so its more or less okay. but sometines when it gets overboard it becomes destructive................... n i think tts happening in my case. so i shall have to get rid of it. begone! hahah. oh well easier said than done. old habits, esp bad ones, die hard. :/
man. studying, or trying to at least, is the pits. im so bloody short attention spanned! keep wandering ard n b4 i noe it half the days gone. n studying alone in an empty house is sooo boring. i hate boredom. its so..empty. i always admired those self sufficient women. always comfortable in themselves, certain of their place in the world n having a purpose. not some purpose like 'oooh i wanna be the smartest ass 4As scholar w 3 spaper distictions!' but a larger purpose... above all the petty certificates n distinctions.
anw. the cruise wat GREAT! :] it was super cool.. ship so pretty! like titanic! nicer i think :] we all had great fun. sis n i shared a room n she kept sleeping. lazy pig. stopped by penang n phuket too to shop! shopshopshop yeaah. :] bought lotsa stuff.. ah mah totebag. esprit wallet etcetc. n tt jill msg me n told me she bought an esprit wallet tt same day too! freaky, i thought we both bought the same wallet. hahah. ate lots on the ship too. like 5-6 meals aday? man it was good.. tho i think im becoming a fatty now. ahh so wat. i like my food :] i miss the ship. it was a great getaway, escape fr reality. a sanctuary. all tt lovely night swims, violent arcarde game sessions, uno games, strolls on the deck, checking out all kinds of pple hahah, lying in the room, sitting at the balcony staring into the vast ocean.... wow its incredible. the immensity of the ship juxtaposed against the seemingly infinite ocean. :] n then snip, back to reality. bah. ooh n all of us attended this hiphop dance class on the cruise too! hilarious man. esp w my dad ard... he kept gg yo yo yo! n shaking ard. HAHAH. n the instructor was like cool i see an enthu man there, true hip hop rocker. hahah. oh please. but my dads so cool man. he made it fun.. tho the moves were retarded. hahah. well spent 4days indeed!

ching- yeah u must must must motivate me k! we shall be model students n mug hard.
whammy- hahah. yeah so cool right. u jealous isit? ;] have fun at co camp.
ning- hahah. k i'll go tag.
choonting- yay u tagged! :] angklung rocks right! hahah. thanks for being great company durg those horrid pracs when certain idiotic pple were boring us to death w their gross antics. :)
sharm- hey pharmila mane barney squidward :] i saw myself on suria channel! but the rest of the pics cant see me. i rue my shortness. hahah.
tis- moooo! :D
jill- PERSEVERE! hahah. have fun at camp. dont let ur hands wander!
sokie- yay! we've gonna have fun next wk! :))

.|. dreamed.at .|. 7:24 AM

Saturday, June 04, 2005

wowlalah

wow wat a busy week! :] so much for mugging for cts. :/
i love the hols. waking up to actual sunlight filtering through the day curtains..not to the sound of an alarm clock but some bird chirping.. having the luxury to just lie there.. and dont. move. just cuddle in the sheets n absorb the niceness of the morning till u feel like getting up. yeahhh i love hols! :]
hols kicked off w class bbq hosted by jenn which now seemed a long time ago. hahah. was real fun tho. n debs brownies n carrot cake was just heavenly! preferred the brownie tho. debs u must give me baking lessons!! after As okay? :)
speaking of baking... sis, cousins n i tried to bake cookies.. it turned out... okay lah. first batch got burnt. hahah. the subsequent batches were better tho they've all out of shape n flatten. but still rather tasty. hahah. brought it for angklung prac tt day n some of them thought it was famous amos. hahah.
sharm came over to study for a day but we ended up slacking like crazy, then one day of this wk was wasted at bio spa. which was stupid.. mealworms n crickets tt started sinisterly at us. sharm freaked out when xt removed the cap of one n pushed it towards her. hahah. quite scary actually.. tt thing looked like it can jump pretty high.
watched madagascar w shubei too! :) funny funny show. quite interesting too.
and today we performed at the opening of the malay heritage culture museum!! wow it was real cool. except for the parts when we were waiting, walking n sweating like a bunch of gross boars in our impractical red blazers. smiling like u've having the time of ur life while sweat pours down ur face is no easy thing.. how unglam. hahah. but it was still an interesting experience! performed twice at raffles hospital first for the crowd which grew larger n larger b4 heading down to the museum place. it was beautiful.. like some bintan resort set in the city :] waited ard till it was our turn to perform. had to cut short our item but no matter. oh n the PM talked to us! as in the prime minister! we thought he was just gonna like walk past us n smile like he does or we thought he might not watch us at all... but who knew! halfway thru our song he appeared right in front of us. less than 2m away n he was smiling like he was really happy n enjoying himself. then imagine this. he clapped beamed, came over shook mr zuels hand.. n then requested to take a shot w us! the reporters were snapping away.. n in a moment it was all over. he enquired bout our syf n we proudly proclaimed we got gold. :)
wow we were all smiles. so here ends our angklung journey.. how bittersweet. though ive/we've complained countless times bout this and that.. all that bitching durg pre-syf practices, grumblings etcetc.. i'll miss not being a part of this anymore. its been a great n interesting experience. thanks all for the memories :]
gg on a family cruise tml to penang n phuket. wont be back till wed evening. toodles all! have a great next couple of days! :]

yihui- yay! urs is pretty too :)

jill- wat, wat hot date? o_0 huhh. -blinkblink-

sharm- tsk barney shldnt be vulgar! wat would the lil kids think?! hahah.

debs- hahah. ignore jill. dunno wat shes talking abt again. :]

cyn- yeah she's better now. n she forbids me to mention her fainting thing ever again. hahah.

.|. dreamed.at .|. 8:53 AM