Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Life&Happiness
Its fruit day today and we're all been given a plum.
its a nice glossy red, smooth small and wonderfully round. and it fits nicely in my hand too (:
if only everything could feel as right as having a plum in ur palm.
this past few months, or this whole year so far in fact, has been an interesting one. i came in wanting to do so many things, try tons of stuff i normally wont have the time to do. i came in expecting it to be a promising year of answers.. but its turning out instead to be a puzzling year of questions.
Instead of the exciting yr i was expecting, where we would all dive gracefully into Life, discover all things amazing and be filled with the sweetness of contentment... its been more of an unsettling yr of waiting. waiting for results, waiting for uni acceptance letters, shuffling betw jobs... basically waiting for things to happen. not just things.. but the one thing that would hit u hard on the head and make u realise this is what u've been waiting for, this is what u want out of life.
Dont get me wrong though, this whole 'waiting' period has had its many splendid moments.. and i've enjoyed myself aplenty. its just not what i anticipated.. like most of the things in life. most of the things i've planned since last yr to do suddenly didnt seem so impt this yr n werent carried out.. but the things i hadnt planned happened. im glad it happened this way tho n can safely say i dont regret anything at all so far.
i guess im just being and have been far too impatient. Things dont just fall from the sky, plans dont drop into place, nor do ants file in a straight line at the snap of ur fingers. We seem to want to scramble thru the tangle of time, sieze Happiness by the hips and hold her [i'll like to think Happiness is female heh] close.. neglecting the beauty that often comes from letting things unfold and appreciating it. its easier said than done tho.. but perhaps patience, discernment and faith is the key.
i'll be leaving for germany soon and its time to stop slinking away fr my doubts, hesistations and fear of the choices and the future and get my uni applications settled. Perhaps life would slowly follow suit and settle itself too.
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dreamed.at .|. 1:11 AM