Friday, July 15, 2005
my/our hearth's been dwindling. its a mere wisp of its former self. its been quenched and even the dying flames are ebbing.. taking away with it all the warmth, love n stability. oh it gets revived once in a while but only to serve as a peep hole to the lala life we once had. now its just splintering. into tiny fragments. so tiny tt if a passing fly breathes it would all rain down never to be pieced tog again. as if it is intristically not stable enough, others, prancing proudly about with their hearth-fire ablaze, come to our hearth to steal our warmth or wats left of it. empty chairs, lonely house, echoy halls. argh its all so complicated.. n damaging.
got back all our ct results this wk.. wat can i say? i feel like a
codfish tts been on the run fr fishing nets and having travelled the whole ocean finds itself being caught in a net again. how incredibly pointless. so disappointing. studying is pointless!! pointless!! im relatively stoic abt my results now... rising panics can be swallowed n controlled if u try hard enough.
its just hard to stare at dismal grades n feel your hopes evaportaing. n having pple point out tt they did better than u even tho u studied harder. as if my academic inadequacy isnt plain enough. glass cut straight to e heart. n to have to do it all over again.. rebuild shattered faith block by block, psychoing urself tt
YOU CAN DO IT even tho ur results clearly show otherwise. its just tiring.
Avril lavigne- nobody's home.
I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
I couldn't help her
I just watched her make
The
same mistakes againWhat's wrong what's wrong now
Too many too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs
She wants to go home But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside
With no place too go No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside
Open your eyes
And look outside
Find the reasons why
You've
been rejectedNow you can't findWhat you've left behind
Be strong be strong now
Too many too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs
She wants to go home
But
nobody's homeThat's where she lies
Broken insideWith no place too go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside
Her feelings she hides
Her dreams she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's falling behind
She can't can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's falling from grace
She's all over the place yeah
She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside
With no place too go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside
She's lost inside lost inside
She's lost inside lost inside
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dreamed.at .|. 7:12 AM