Thursday, June 09, 2005
nakedapes
i am my harshest critic. i have high expectations of myself. though i dont really realise it but im constantly blaming myself n putting pressure, piling expectations on myself. w a lil help fr external elements lah. n why shldnt i be? its my life, my future, mine to shape. i guess everyone does it too so its more or less okay. but sometines when it gets overboard it becomes destructive................... n i think tts happening in my case. so i shall have to get rid of it. begone! hahah. oh well easier said than done. old habits, esp bad ones, die hard. :/
man. studying, or trying to at least, is the pits. im so bloody short attention spanned! keep wandering ard n b4 i noe it half the days gone. n studying alone in an empty house is sooo boring. i hate boredom. its so..empty. i always admired those self sufficient women. always comfortable in themselves, certain of their place in the world n having a purpose. not some purpose like 'oooh i wanna be the smartest ass 4As scholar w 3 spaper distictions!' but a larger purpose... above all the petty certificates n distinctions.
anw. the cruise wat GREAT! :] it was super cool.. ship so pretty! like titanic! nicer i think :] we all had great fun. sis n i shared a room n she kept sleeping. lazy pig. stopped by penang n phuket too to shop! shopshopshop yeaah. :] bought lotsa stuff.. ah mah totebag. esprit wallet etcetc. n tt jill msg me n told me she bought an esprit wallet tt same day too! freaky, i thought we both bought the same wallet. hahah. ate lots on the ship too. like 5-6 meals aday? man it was good.. tho i think im becoming a fatty now. ahh so wat. i like my food :] i miss the ship. it was a great getaway, escape fr reality. a sanctuary. all tt lovely night swims, violent arcarde game sessions, uno games, strolls on the deck, checking out all kinds of pple hahah, lying in the room, sitting at the balcony staring into the vast ocean.... wow its incredible. the immensity of the ship juxtaposed against the seemingly infinite ocean. :] n then snip, back to reality. bah. ooh n all of us attended this hiphop dance class on the cruise too! hilarious man. esp w my dad ard... he kept gg yo yo yo! n shaking ard. HAHAH. n the instructor was like cool i see an enthu man there, true hip hop rocker. hahah. oh please. but my dads so cool man. he made it fun.. tho the moves were retarded. hahah. well spent 4days indeed!
ching- yeah u must must must motivate me k! we shall be model students n mug hard.
whammy- hahah. yeah so cool right. u jealous isit? ;] have fun at co camp.
ning- hahah. k i'll go tag.
choonting- yay u tagged! :] angklung rocks right! hahah. thanks for being great company durg those horrid pracs when certain idiotic pple were boring us to death w their gross antics. :)
sharm- hey pharmila mane barney squidward :] i saw myself on suria channel! but the rest of the pics cant see me. i rue my shortness. hahah.
tis- moooo! :D
jill- PERSEVERE! hahah. have fun at camp. dont let ur hands wander!
sokie- yay! we've gonna have fun next wk! :))
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