Sunday, January 02, 2005
a whole new year.
whooo. 2004 is no more but in memories now... 2004 was tough... with fitting into SA, n then NJ. n having to deal with a whole lot of family stuff.. but it all turned out ok:] im thankful for lots of things..but most of all im thankful for the simple joys in life n everyone tt has contributed to it. afterall, its the little things in everyday life tt matters the most yeah? good n bad, everything in life is a learning experience:] still, i'll miss 2004. at least i knew wat was in it. im comfortable w 2004. you noe wat i mean? 2005 is a whole new yr.. filled w uncertainties, unexpected stuff... n ups n downs aplenty i can bet. esp with the looming big As.. hohoho. oh well, come what may! i'll make the best out of it. whatever 2005 brings.. i'll have what it takes n do wat i can to deal with it. yeahh! haha.
i spent the last of 2004 at the temple. was there at the retreat the whole day. it was a cool experience.. brought back lotsa memories. good n bad. n during the blessing session at the end. the lamas on stage recognised me. haha. n this lama grinned n said something to me but couldnt quite catch it. haha. was nice to know tt they remembered me fr last yr n all. i wonder why... probably cos char n i kept giggling n dozing off. heheh. n prob cos we were one of the few young girls there. retreat ended abt 10 plus at nite. n char n i went to talk to the lamas n stayed in the temple w my aunts n uncles till the new yr arrived with a long gong. literally. 108 gongs on the big bell to be exact. haha. was standing there.. amongst a huge crowd of pple, lamas n monks. the lotus candles glittering under the night sky n the temple brightly litted. all there to welcome the new yr n to make aspirations. it was cool. i like the feeling i get when i attend temple events. it brings back memories, makes u feel all hopeful, comfortable n warm. like we've all in this tog.. surrounded by love. :) things just feel so complete. then when the gongs receeded. all started cheering..hungs were exchanged n hands were shaken warmly. we all made our aspirations for the new yr n lit a lotus candle, placing it amongst the rest..each lighted w hope for a great yr ahead. i used to hate gg to the temple every yr. i mean... why go there when i could be partying elsewhere? but then, the past yrs..n stuff tt had happened made me realise theres more to life than just the little pleasures u get fr partying n having fun. there is still faith hope, n the larger purpose in life tt must be recognised n worked towards to. yeahh... so i guess next yr, n the next n the next. it'll be peaceful temple scene for me n no havoc countdown parties. haha.
okay, sch starts tml. heres a toast to a beautiful n blessed yr ahead! :D
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