Friday, January 14, 2005
what theyve all not saying.
so another wk has passed. schs alright actually... lots of laughter in betw lessons n all. :)
well while everything is more or less gg on fine, im sick of playing pretend. there are several issues i have to confront..unpleasant or not. but i just dunno how to deal with it all anymore. its just so difficult. i rather just be me actually but its hard when u have to watch this n that. n when others just do not want to budge either way. sheesh. :/ sometimes its easier not to care. its easier to be numb n not think so much. just
live life in the moment.
small steps.
all i can do is just do what i can n if nothing works then i wont fall all over myself for it. i can bend forwards n backwards, put my interests n any discontent aside for the sake of better things but i cant compromise my beliefs. must be true to myself. my conscience is clear.
i shant live in tt world of make believe anymore..tho others continue to play the game. to hell with facades n appearances.
Despite these minute[not so] issues, theres lots to be thankful for! this wkend is gonna be fun filled :) hope everyone has fun too! ciao.
no one can make you unhappy without your consent.
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dreamed.at .|. 7:48 AM