Wednesday, December 29, 2004
today i woke up early for like prob the 1st time this hols to go to the temple at kms. they were having the 100million mani recitation retreat again this yr but this time i didnt sign up. it was for 10 days! fr 830am to 10pm! n i would have to miss christmas if i signed up! seemed too horrifying n unbearable to me when i was asked to sign up again this yr. cant think why tho... when i was so on abt it after last yr. sighh, n after attending the morning session today, i realised how much of an opportunity i had lost. kinda disappointed w myself tt i had succumbed to the flightiness n opression of the world this past yr after wat i had learnt fr the retreat last yr. i guess i just wasnt sensible n steadfast enough to hold on to what i believe in an practice it. n maybe abit rash n ambitious. haha. well, im glad i made time n had to chance to go for this morning session today. it has helped me restore my faith n awakened me to certain things ive been blocking out n am still blocking out.. i guess i'll have to try really hard to take a step at a time from here. mistakes are ok, as long as lessons are learnt fr it.rite..
afterall, this past few yrs have been tough n also the recent massive scaled tragedy tt struck sri lanka, india, indonesia n other areas, have shown tt everything is impermanent, and tt the only certainty in life is death. so w the uncertainties of this world, what else can pple seek to answer life n deaths qns n learn abt the larger purpose tt governs us? i dont want to live my life in numbed ignorance on a day to day basis n just do wat im doing wo really thinking or seeing wat direction im headed to. n for tt i shall turn once more to buddhism. like last yr, except tt i strayed off for a long time. tt shall be one of my many new yr resolutions! :]
ok so today [wed]
went out w lynette n alethia! :] met for sakae lunch n basically hung ard n chatted n walked ard n ard. n we followed lynette to get her belly pierced too! heheh. was trying to talk her out of it.. telling her she will get constipation n blahblah. but no, she wont listen to my always sound advice. so we went to fareast w her to this shop where they had a sign 'genital piercings done' n had all kinds of muscular hairy, vvvtatooted guys hanging ard inside. n i was thinking tt it was a bad idea to get a piercing done there... but she went it anw n they turned out rather nice. i helped her choose a real nice pale blue stud n she n alethia went off into the piercing room. there was only room for 1 other person in the room n alethia was incredibly fascinated w the thought of watching lynettes belly being pierced so i decided to stay outside n let her have the 'honours' heheh. yeahh so tt was basically the highlight of our outing.
haha, plus it was gd to see both of them again after like 398721 yrs of course. ohh n i almost forgot. we got approached by a really wierd guy today too. he plonked out of nowhere outside tangs. n started babbling n prattling off loudly to us. asking us if we speak english[like duh] n telling us tt we 3 were really vvvpretty girls but theres a slight prob. den he gave a fake puzzled frown n bellowed, 'its ur eyebrows!' they were apparently sing-ed n bushy n whatever n totally spoiled our look. haha. i was mildly offended for a few secs when he suddenly shoved a newspaper cutting in our faces n said he was [ta-da] SUPER STEVEN! famous, on newspaper, plucked celebrities eyebrows...n he was willing to charge us at a superbly low price of 10 bucks! i saw this pic of a guy in a superman outfit in the newspaper cutting n there was a sign on it saying 'super steven!' n he did the super man pose for us several times. i suddenly had the attack of the giggles n had to almost smother myself to stop myself. hahaha. ohhh mannnn. but it was entertaining. other than the fact tt i had bushy crooked eyebrows
yesterday [tue]
had something on n then rushed to meet jo maria n hm. ate lunch at yoshi n then went to watch phantom of the opera!! didnt want to at first cos i remembered my horrifying experience when i watched the musical last time. but then, i was 5 only la. haha. n i dont regret it one bit! it was a beautiful movie. the scenes n costumes. n the songs! n the singing! terrific. n so sad too. feel so sad for the phantom... no one shld have to ever go thru soo much pain. x( n i felt sad throughout the movie n after tt..cos the phantom was so poor thing. he loved christine sooo much. till the point of insanity literally but he's act a good man deep down. there was just too much hate in him. sighh. this reminds me of the saying 'the only way to free yourself, is to forgive.' soo true.
then walked ard borders looking at really nice notebooks b4 jo left n maria n i hung ard at far east for awhile b4 we left too.
ok so i had lotsa fun;] but i haven finished my hol hw! oh shit. n im meeting sokie tml too. to exchange gifts :] toodle-oo.
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